Friday, July 25, 2008

book club

I want to read. The idea of sitting down with a few books and doing nothing but being literate for a while sounds so enticing to me. The library has always been a favorite place of mine. There is something so amazing about the smell of books. It might sounds strange but when you crack open a novel at first there is a richness in the aroma.

I remember in elementary school when there was a reading program. Once you completed so many books you would win a free pizza from pizza hut. I wish I could still get free food just for reading. haha Maybe that's the poor, hungry college student in me talking. Perhaps there should be some profound thought to this, but I just wish I had more free time to read...enough said.

Someone actually told me the other day they didn't want to read the book because if the plot was any good someone would just make a movie for it sooner or later. The sad part...they were dead serious. When I have kids I'm going to make them read books before they watch the movie. I bet they'll resent me for that. haha ..that is all. :)

Sunday, July 20, 2008

embrace the moments

I find myself being so impatient these days. There are just so many things I desire, and I can't reach out and grab them. They are the types of things you just must be patient and wait on. I consider myself so blessed, but I want more. I guess it's human nature; however, I find that in my case I might take this to an extreme. It seems to be a trend in my life to want to hit the skip button. There are times I think, "Just one more hour, one more day, one more week, or just a few more months and then...." (finishing that sentence varies all the time). I so often forget about the here and now. Wow, living in the present?!? What a crazy concept.

There are so many important things going on in my life, even in this moment. Sure, I'm just sitting on my couch letting my fingers glide across my keyboard, but how awesome is it that I have time to sit and write? It's something I love to do and here I am "living the dream" and doing it. I sound like a hallmark card or some corny after school special...but I'm over it. I'm corny and not ashamed. My goal for the next month is to stop myself from wanting to hit the fast forward and instead maybe try to put things in slow motion instead. (I'm loving this whole remote control analogy tonight I guess.) I might also take use of the pause button and truly savor moments. In a short time I will be so busy with work and student teaching I might not have much time to be corny and write on here. I'd really miss this too if that does happen.

Here's to those moments worth savoring, may there be more of them in the near future...that is all.

Sunday, July 6, 2008

the mole

I have a confession to make: I love watching The Mole on t.v. (actually I watch it online because I usually work Monday nights when it airs, but you get the idea). In a nutshell there are 12 players: 6 women, 6 men, with ages ranging from 20 to 60 years old, all of different occupations, etc. you get the idea. They have traveled to Mexico in order to compete in missions each episode; however, one of the team members is being paid to sabotage the missions. At the end of every show the players must take the quiz, which consists of 10 questions about the mole's every move and the player with the most incorrect answers gets sent home.

As I watch the show I also make my own assumptions as to who the mole is. I find myself running into trouble though because when I watch the shows I see EVERYTHING. This includes confessions and behind the scene footage, which only the viewers at home have the "advantage" of watching. Now, I say all this to make a point. I watch the show alone, but always discuss with LeAnn my "big sister" :) We used to watching it back when I was in high school too and analyze everything, making our own assumptions as to who might be the mole. As I told LeAnn though I hate having to see/hear everything. There are too many voices influencing me. I wish I could just observe everything without having to be mislead.

As I was telling this to LeAnn it struck me this is similar to life itself. There are so many voices bussing around. Which ones do we listen to? There is a quote, and sorry I can't recall who said it, that goes, "One of the hardest things in life is knowing which bridge to keep and which bridge to burn." Who are the true friends in our lives that we can trust? Who should be listen to and allow to influence ourselves? This is a challenge I find myself struggling with...all we can do is hope and pray that the people who love, respect, and trust will do their best to not let us down...that is all.

Thursday, July 3, 2008

happy 4th of july

It's 1:56a.m. on July 4th. Happy Independence Day!!!! :)

The past couple weeks have been crazy. I'm opening and closing...mainly closing...at the store now. One of my store's managers got transferred and I have kind of taken over his responsibilities. I'm the unofficial people manager now. Only because I am in training until the middle of August. I LOVE my job more than ever. This blog is turning into a lovefest about being a manager at A&F but I work 50 hours a week, so obviosuly it's a big part of my life. One downside to my job...I have to be available 7 days a week. For the first time in my life I have to have open availability. This includes Sunday mornings, which right now I'm being scheduled for because one of my duties as people manager is to run orientation. Orientation takes place every Sunday at 10a.m. at every Hollister, Abercrombie, and Abercrombie & Fitch across the country...I don't have an option in the matter. I miss going to church.....but right now I'm stuck in this schedule.

I have today (the 4th) and tomorrow off from work though. I super excited!!! I'm going to lay outside and attempt to get tan. I also want to catch up on some reading. I usually have about 20 books finished by this point in the summer and this year I've only read 3 or 4. I have a stack of 4 books already picked out. I'm so excited to lay outside and read. It is so relaxing to be apart of nature like that.

I'm super tired, so that's all for now. When I have some more time over the next two days I'll try to write something with a little more meaning...haha